I wanted to write a little bit more in depth about my most recent image (on July 15th, 2019) as it is the first I have created since making some big changes to my creative and professional life.
Without a doubt, and if you follow my work closely, you may or may not have read or picked up perhaps that the last few years have been probably the most difficult that I have had yet. I went through a lot personally and finding my way in my professional life too. I’ve always been someone who has dealt tremendously with anxiety and I have let my own anxiety and other commitments dictate my life and my photos. There have been so many times when I’ve let it win and have gone weeks, even months, from shooting a new image. It was difficult having this constant push and pull happen where I would be dying to shoot something new but I just couldn’t bring myself to make the image.
But with all of that, it all comes full circle. How can I progress in all the other areas of my life if I wasn’t also giving special care to my passion as well? So I decide to take full control of it again. I’ve started scheduling out my shoots that I am making a commitment to each week. I used to shoot almost everyday and I miss it dearly. So I’ve decided that I want to shoot a new image at least 4x a week. I also am taking this as a great oppurtunity to force myself to start expierimenting with new techniques, settings, etc. as well.
So this brings me to this wonderful image. My first image in my new adventure I’m making for myself. I was thinking of this concept after I was finished watching, “Us” the horror movie. My original concept was to create an image with the doppleganers side by side. (Makes more sense if you’ve seen the movie) But after editing it became more appearant that the subject shot that I really loved while shooting (and the one in the image) is the best one to fit the image finalization. Even though my concept kind of changed during the post processing, the image is one that I’m happy with. I was able to play with a new light while shooting. I normally shoot at magic hour- dealing with minimal light and for this image, I was able to play a much brighter light as the sun was setting and composite in my own landscape.
“Don’t think. Thinking is the enemy of creativity. It’s self-conscious, and anything self-conscious is lousy. You can’t try to do things. You simply must do things.”
I’ve included the full image, detail crops, and then a behind the scenes image of my process with a little rainbow that appeared in the distance.